I Believe

Few years ago, I had lost everything in life. Work was fucked, family life was unstable and my love life was in the dumpsters. When I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I decided that no, I'm not gonna give up. I did not want to succumb and live like a loser. The day I realised that, I wrote this. Sometime in 2010. And since that day on I have only bounced back. Nobody came to support me back then and people were only hurling phrases like 'let go', 'forget it' etc etc. But I believed in myself. I decided that I'll make peace with the melancholy and not ignore it. I then accepted the situation and worked my way out of it. 

And here I am today, almost 2 years later. I have a job that I love, a supporting family and the love of my life to whom I'm getting married soon. Life seems like a fairy tale today. The only way I get to appreciate it is because of the past. I'm glad I held on to myself and crawled back into sanity and then to happiness. Else, I wouldn't be around to write this. Not today, not then.

Believe in yourself. No one and nothing else matters. So here we go, 'I Believe'.

Kept on wondering

When I'll be free

I wanted to live

I wanted the happiness key

Love and joy

Was always around

I failed to see

How could it be

The sun's shining bright

There will be no fright

There will be smiles

Through the day and the night

I am the change

I wanted to see

No one owns me

No he or she

Hurt, tears and pain

Its all comes in vain

They come in herds

I'm done with these words

When I feel like I've had enough

I feel like giving it all up

But my will is as strong as it can be

Now nothing can stop me

Deep in my heart

There is no doubt

When love comes again

I'll go reaching out

I will stand tall

And make myself proud

Now, I only see the silver linings

And not some damned cloud

Unhappy is not the way

That I want to leave

I'll get it all

In me, I believe

~ Soumya